I've written and not posted several pieces to try and get across how I feel about Charlton at the moment. It's all so confusing.
One things for certain, we could definitely have better owners and a more sensible/competent CEO.
Worries about our inexperienced and paper thin squad were alleviated a touch with the signings of Rudd and Pearce - but then this morning the news Callum Harriott is off to Reading brings us backwards a few steps.
Harriott did really well in Riga's first spell in charge, was then deemed not good enough for the Championship and farmed out to Colchester for half a season. Riga returns and then he's called back into the first team set up. He then was looking like a natural starter on the flank this season and ends up going to a Championship side (a division not too long ago he was deemed not good enough for) for another undisclosed fee.
I'm still agonising over whether to renew mine and my sons season tickets, the generation up from us has had enough and will not be renewing. In fact Northampton at home will be their swan song, certainly until the Mad Flem's depart.
My issue is 'why should I let these idiots take away something that's been such a major part of my life since 1981?' But then I think to myself 'well they already have!'
As things stand I'll be buying tickets for the first two home league games and then see where I go from there.
As for my own expectations for the season ahead? I do not anticipate mediocrity. I honestly think it's on a knifes edge and we will simply sink or swim.
A promotion push may well see some supporters come back to the club, the downwards spiral carrying on it's current trajectory and we will see an even more self defeating toxic atmosphere at the Valley than we did even last season. And it was pretty unenjoyable, results aside.
Part of me still has that spark of excitement today on the eve of the new season. Wonder how long it will last?